The last five days, have been the most silent days in my life. I was down with viral fever and I was feeling really fatigued. I did not have the energy to talk. And, there were not people around me to talk. Wait wait. Before all this, stop reading if you have something important to be done next. It is not a post that will interest you, nor will this be a good piece of writing. So, back to where I was, my grand mom underwent a by-pass surgery over the weekend, and my dad was out of station. Me, my mom, and our home. I felt very lonely most of the time, but I was reluctant to even pick up the calls, because I was totally sick. A heartfelt sorry to all those of you, who tried calling up to enquire. Thank you.
But, over the last 5 days, I thought of a lot of things. I kept thinking, and I slept. Got up, to again think of something. I really did not have another option. TV and comp and books were out of the question, as my eyes were burning red. And ceiling-staring did not help much. I kept thinking. I slept. I dreamt. Woke up. Thought of the dream. Back to thoughts again. And finally, I decided to write down.
A lot of issues are bothering me. A lot of them. I realiazed that none of them came all of a sudden, but were gradually accumulating for a long time, due to my own actions. And, I now know what has to be done.
I had a very wierd dream of me and nive saying good-bye to each other. And I dreamt of meeting my english teacher, someone because of whom I feel am among the blessed few. I fall at her feet and she, kisses me in the forehead. Ah. That’s what she always used to do. The second greatest woman I have known, next to my paatti is her.
I talk to Sandhya and sriram. Talking to my siblings, always makes me feel better by miles. Am really happy that we grew up together. Both of them have always been there to give me the support, and to guide me and aravind. Esp sriram. I somehow feel more connected to him, though, I hardly talk to him. And then, I realise I havent talked to sups and sangeetha, for a long time. Made a mental note to mail them and rahul as well.
And there is an unfortunate (or was it fortunate) issue at family. The discussion my family members had on it, enlightened me, like nothing else did for a while. And, yes, like never before, they all openly discussed things. Felt like a grown up
this has never happened before!!!!
And him . It’s not getting any better. At this rate, I think, we will soon end up not talking to each other again gradually. Am okay with it. But what am not okay with is, the other person seems at will to discard things, make deliberatly blunt and rude statements. I have got used to half of them by now. The rest half will soon follow suit
And, Karna, the legend. Been listening to “ullathil nalla ullam” for a hundred times over the last 2 days. I took so much inspiration from him. His life, what a man. Fell in love with the movie yet again.
I know it’s totally non-sense writing. Sorry.
Adieu

And the point has faded away. Leaving behind memories, that would last for eternity. Life should move on..
